August 2023 should've been the start of a new life for me instead, my alcoholic ass ruined any chance at potential change by spending all of my money on my vices (featured in the fuck off series).

Choosing to live your life through the lens of constant drug and alcohol abuse pushes you into thinking about death a lot, and into doing things that a sober-minded person would never even think about. Seeing people who would never have crossed paths with me otherwise. Wasting my energy on creating new obstacles instead of finding my way past them.

where we go when we die, maybe is a series of paintings featuring the same image. Life can be bleak when you have nothing to do except fill your time with drugs, and the empty, meaningless relationships that come with it. I filled the day with hoping death will find me sooner rather than later, that's the part of being an addict they don't tell you about. the part where you want to rush through the bleakness of life and cut straight to where we go when we die.